A lot of people say or think that tearing up the pope’s photo derailed my career. That’s not how I feel about it. I feel that having a number-one record derailed my career and my tearing the photo put me back on the right track. I had to make my living performing live again. And that’s what I was born for. I wasn’t born to be a pop star. You have to be a good girl for that. Not be too troubled. Sinéad O'Connor ‘Rememberings’

I decided to read Sinéad O’Connor’s memoir Rememberings after being reminded of her music via a playlist shared with me. I remember reading reporting about the book and extracts when it was released, and was interested in reading it, but had lingered on my list of books to read.

The book feels like it is made up of two halves. The first part covers O’Connor’s childhood and early career, up until the fallout following her appearance on “Saturday Night Live” where she tore up a photo of Pope John Paul II. This includes part of the book explores her fractured and abusive relationship with her mother, being sent to Grianán Training Centre in response to her shoplifting, her early music career, recording her debut album while pregnant, and the rapid rise associated with the success of Nothing Compares 2 U.

The second part covers the rest of O’Connor’s career. This includes a reflection on her various albums, her challenges with mental health, her experiences with drugs, her exploration of different religions, discussion of encounters with famous people, such as Mohammad Ali, and having four children with four fathers. The second part is a bit patchy, as she had a breakdown and struggled to remember anything much afterwards.

The reason I haven’t written much about what happened between 1992 and 2015 is that in August 2015, after I’d written the first part of this book, I had an open-surgery radical hysterectomy in Ireland followed by a total breakdown.
I had gotten as far as the Saturday Night Live story, but I did not write anything else for the four years it took me to recover from the breakdown, and by the time I’d recovered, I was unable to remember anything much that took place before it.

Source: Rememberings by Sinéad O’Connor

Whether it be choosing to shave her head after being told to be more feminine, being encouraged to terminate her first child by record executives, tearing up a picture of Pope John Paul II or escaping a pillow fight with Prince, it feels that the book was largely a cathartic effort to reclaim the narrative of O’Connor’s life. This was all brought to a head with her postscript written to her father in which she links her mental illness to being hit in the head by a train door at the age of a 11.

All in all, Rememberings is equal part sad and funny, maybe because through it all she was able to survive. Its fractured and rambling nature reminded me a little of Tony Cohen’s somewhat incomplete memoir. Listening to O’Connor’s reading (via Borrowbox) also helped make the book real, especially when she would often laugh at the humour and absurdity associated with various situations. Although not necessarily seeking sympathy, Remembering provides a peek behind the curtain.

Sometimes it’s a little better to travel than to arrive. Robert Pirsig ‘Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance’

At its heart, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance is a simple tale that praises basic values and decries ugly technology. Pirsig tells his story while riding the secondary roads across the Dakotas to the mountains, touching Yellowstone National Park before a pause in Bozeman, Montana. From there, he crosses into Idaho and over to Oregon before dipping down into California and reaching the Pacific coast and San Francisco. Pretty good trip, really.

Source: Zen and Art by Mark Richardson


I always find it strange how the same book can take on different lives based on the actual experience of reading. I was given Robert Pirsig’s Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Stacey and Dan for my birthday. Dan’s dad taught high school philosophy and Dan said it was a good introductory text. I must admit, I’m not sure I took it all in at the time (I feel I took more in this time.) Although I remember the discussion of gumption, “the psychic gasoline that keeps the whole thing going,” and the different appreciation of the motorcycle. I feel that a lot of the philosophical side may have gone over my head as I did not necessarily have the patience or prior knowledge to connect it to.

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance is a novel intertwined with different threads. It is part memoir, tracing Pirsig’s own life and experiences, part travelogue recounting a journey across America from east to west, part philosophical treatise, exploring the question of quality, and part reflection on life with mental illness. On the Overdue podcast, Andrew Cunningham and Craig Getting suggest that it is similar in style to Moby Dick where the story is interspersed with other narratives about the philosophy of quality. While Pirsig once explained the various characters a ‘Greek chorus’:

Pirsig: I explained to them that the story isn’t really about them, that they are like a Greek chorus there to “Oh” and “Ah” and give a semblance of reality to a tale that seems always to ride at the very edge of incredibility and needs all the help it can get.

Source: Zen and Now by Mark Richardson

However, the relationship with Chris does balance things and provides more than a chorus.

Personally, there was something compelling in re-reading the novel having lived more of a life. I feel like I have gone through my own Phadreas-like experience. (Although it may also be something of a mis-reading of quality.) Not a psychotic breakdown, but a grapple with ideals. I tried to get students to self-grade themselves. (See for example reflections on Genius Hour, Robotics and Digital Publishing.) I tried to help them manage their own inquiries and ‘turn into free men.’

The purpose of abolishing grades and degrees is not to punish mules or to get rid of them but to provide an environment in which that mule can turn into a free man.

Source: Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert Pirsig

It too felt like a battle between doing something because it has always been done that way as opposed to developing a deeper appreciation of the practice itself. My students were confused as this somewhat contradicted what was happening within their other classes, it did not necessarily make sense. (I say this, but interestingly in cleaning up some old school things that I kept for far too long I actually found a card from a student thanking me for the opportunity to develop an excursion, which I guess was a win.) I do not believe my intent was not directly inspired by Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, but if we are to believe Pierre Bayard, that we are the sum of our accumulated books, then it must have inspired me in some way on the journey.

One of the things that I was surprised by was how useful the book was for my work with technology as it was personally. In particular, I was left thinking about Pirsig’s list of gumption traps. Whether it be external setbacks:

  • Inadequate tools or materials: When the tools or materials you have are not suitable for the task.
  • Environmental factors: Such as poor lighting or uncomfortable working conditions.
    Or internal hang-ups:
  • Value Traps: These block affective understanding. For example, when you undervalue the importance of a task.
  • Truth Traps: These block cognitive understanding. For instance, when you have incorrect assumptions or misunderstandings about the task.
  • Muscle Traps: These block psychomotor behavior. An example is physical fatigue or lack of coordination

It was also interesting to consider the various lessons as I have been watching the house being built across the road by the owner builder. Each day he returns, either overseeing the various trades or working away on things. It often seems like he is not doing much, but as Pirsig suggests, he is probably looking at the underlying form.

An untrained observer will see only physical labor and often get the idea that physical labor is mainly what the mechanic does. Actually the physical labor is the smallest and easiest part of what the mechanic does. By far the greatest part of his work is careful observation and precise thinking. That is why mechanics sometimes seem so taciturn and withdrawn when performing tests. They don’t like it when you talk to them because they are concentrating on mental images, hierarchies, and not really looking at you or the physical motorcycle at all. They are using the experiment as part of a program to expand their hierarchy of knowledge of the faulty motorcycle and compare it to the correct hierarchy in their mind. They are looking at underlying form.

Source: Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert Pirsig


All in all, there was something about Pirsig that reminded me of something I read once in a review of Mark Haddon’s The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time:

When did he first find evidence of the alien landscape that’s inside his narrator Christopher’s head? “Oh, I think that if you’re a writer you have that in your own head from quite an early age. I think it’s true there are two types of kids as school. One type probably breezes through school like gazelles across the veldt. For the more troubled types on the edge of the playground, how you get from one day to the next is a mystery. All writers come from the latter, because only if you’re in that group does the working of the human mind become an object of interest.”

Source: Mark Haddon: This year’s big read by John Walsh (Independent)

What James Taylor said of Joni is true of Taylor: “She’s building the canvas as well as she is putting the paint on it.” Now we live in a world of Taylor Swifts. Rob Sheffield ‘Heartbreak is the National Anthem’

With my daughters, I have read bits and pieces of various books on Taylor Swift bought through school bookclub. They often capture the myth or artist as commodity, always with an eye to being objective, starting from the beginning and working their way through, trying not to get bogged down by distraction. Rob Sheffield’s Heartbreak Is the National Anthem: How Taylor Swift Reinvented Pop Music is different to this, his book embraces the distractions.

Heartbreak is the National Anthem is complicated. On the one hand Sheffield is a writer for Rolling Stone, with his focus on various questions, connections and access, but he is also a a 6’5 middle aged man who loves Taylor Swift and has from the beginning. For example, he maintains a running list of all her songs ranked, with Bad Blood always being last. Sheffield’s text zooms in and out as required, capturing various aspects, myths, the brand, the cultural phenomenon. He is both inside and outside of the conversation. On the one hand critiquing the machine as a reviewer for The Rolling Stone:

I went to Taylor’s Tribeca apartment in the fall of 2017 to listen to her new album Reputation, for security reasons. (It was the only place where she could guarantee there weren’t any hidden microphones.) Two vinyl albums were propped up on the piano where she wrote most of the album: David Bowie’s Diamond Dogs and Kris Kristofferson’s Border Lord. She had a book (and only one) sitting on her dining room table: the collected lyrics of Bob Dylan.

Source: Heartbreak is the National Anthem by Rob Sheffield

While next minute at the very heart of it:

On the Reputation tour in New Jersey, in July 2018, she asked me before the show: “Enchanted” or “The Lucky One”? She knew it was an easy choice for me. But it added an element of stomach-churning anxiety to the show, as if people should be warned that something so cataclysmic was about to happen in the wild-card slot. There had been rain showers off and on that afternoon, but she triggered a full-on thunderstorm with this song. The clouds burst the exact moment she hit the “Please don’t be in love with someone else” coda—and nobody will ever convince me she didn’t make that happen.

Source: Heartbreak is the National Anthem by Rob Sheffield

He will zoom out to capture particular situations, such as the saga involving Kanye West or the decision to re-record her back catalogue. While he also zoom in to dig into particular tracks.

What I enjoyed about the book was Sheffield’s placement of Swift within the wider pop pantheon. He often compares her current status with artists of the past to place it in context:

Eighteen years in, even the greats tend to hit a dry spell. Let’s put it this way: When David Bowie was at this point in his career, he was hitting the skids with his 1980s shoulder-pads era with Never Let Me Down. Prince was turning into the Artist Formerly Known As, with Emancipation. Springsteen was in his Lucky Town era. Dylan bottomed out in his preachy born-again phase. Stevie Wonder got lost in The Secret Life of Plants.

Source: Heartbreak is the National Anthem by Rob Sheffield

He also situates her work in a wider literary tradition. For example, he compares her re-recording of songs with William Wordsworth’s lifelong revision of The Prelude or makes the connection with John Keats’ obsession with a particular kind of desire.

“Cruel Summer” is her ultimate window song, and not just the way she sings “Killing me slow, out the window.” There’s so much mystery in the erotics of windows in Taylor’s song—she’s got a Keatsian obsession with the kind of desire that doesn’t dare use the door. Heading out the window, she feels a rush that she doesn’t feel when she gets wherever she’s slithering off to. These lovers keep it on the hush, but that’s the attraction, the sub-rosa thrill. She’s seduced by the window.

Source: Heartbreak is the National Anthem by Rob Sheffield

It was interesting to think about this alongside Peter Kirkpatrick discussion of song lyrics as a form poetry on Late Night Live podcast. “Words used in an astonishing way.” Although, there are also some who, such as Simon Armitage, who argue that although they are related, lyrics and poetry are distinctly different:

In most cases, the orchestration has been built into the language already … when a composer takes those words, they want to fit them around another tune … very often what we admire in the poem gets lost in the transference.

Lyrics are made to come with this other stuff called music. When sung they can be transcendent, but when read on the page they can be inane.

Source: “Like portals to other worlds”: UK poet laureate Simon Armitage on the power of poems – ABC listen

Sheffield makes links with other artists throughout. including a bridge to the book of thirteen songs that Swift might have on a playlist.


One of the interesting things about Sheffield’s book is that he questions what writing can be. I initially wondered if the book was patched together due to lack of time, making the most of the current moment. However, the more I thought about it, the more I wondered whether I even wanted a dry and critical biography. In some ways, this book is as much about how to best capture the complexity that is ‘Taylor Swift’ as it is about Taylor Swift herself. Although the book begins with a traditional timeline, from there it embraces the subjectivity associated with culture and music. Some examples include listening to “Coney Island” on Coney Island.

I’ve spent an hour on the Q train each way just to hear “Coney Island” in Coney Island with the sun going down.

Source: Heartbreak is the National Anthem by Rob Sheffield

Having an attachment with the Archer when his mother passed away:

“The Archer,” that was the one. It spoke right to me, as I tried to blend into the background, pretending to be invisible. I flinched every time the line “they see right through me” led into “I see right through me!” Like most of the album, it’s a song about having secrets that you kid yourself you’re doing a great job of hiding, when they’re written all over your face. The woman in “The Archer,” she believes she’s making a bold confession, unaware that her intimacies are already obvious.

Source: Heartbreak is the National Anthem by Rob Sheffield

(In addition to the personal patchwork, another quirk to Sheffield’s writing is his perchance for littering the text with lyrics throughout.)


I came to this book after seeing Sheffield mentioned in Dylan Jones’ Sweet Dreams. I did not have much expectation other than a book about Taylor Swift. What I ended up enjoying was the way Sheffield’s bias as a fan invited me as a listener and reader into the text to reflect upon my own experiences as no book could properly do justice to all the nuisances.

She will be so many different Taylors, way too many, and they’ll all want the microphone all the damn time.
She will make brilliant moves—or catastrophic gaffes, because that’s what rock stars do, giving us facepalm concussions. She’ll break up with country music, then get back together. She will break up with being single, then get back together. She will get judged, denounced, laughed at, condemned. (Ignored? That one’s not really in the cards.) She will have great ideas and terrible ideas. She will turn some of these terrible ideas into great songs, or vice versa. She will find the drama in any situation, no matter how trivial or ordinary it might seem. She will change how pop music is made, heard, experienced. She will bait. She will switch. She will be a terrible role model for anyone trying to lead a calm and sensible emotional life. She will jump into every feeling with the certainty that it’s the last one she’ll ever have.
In 2024, it’s a cliché to say Taylor Swift is the music industry, but it isn’t necessarily wrong.

Source: Heartbreak is the National Anthem by Rob Sheffield

The very thing that seems most worth resurrecting from postpunk is its commitment to change. This belief was expressed both in the conviction that music should keep moving forward and in the confidence that music can transform the world, even if only through altering one individual’s perceptions or enlarging one’s sense of possibility. Simon Reynolds ‘Rip It Up and Start Again’

I remember when I first saw chocolate being served as a part of the main dish on some gourmet cooking show. It was not what I had been brought up to expect. For me, chocolate was a sweet, a snack, not savory a part of a meal. However, what it highlighted was the way in which ingredients can be used in different circumstances for different purposes. I think something similar can be said about the post-punk movement that Simon Reynolds captures in his book Rip it Up and Start Again.

I always thought the punk ethos was about three chords and a DIY attitude, but had never really considered what was meant by ‘post-punk’. This confusion is something Jim Windolf touches on in his review of the book:

“Postpunk” proves to be a slippery label. If Reynolds wasn’t aware of this when he started his research, he learned it the hard way while talking with various postpunk musicians for this book. “A lot of them, when I mentioned postpunk, didn’t quite understand what I meant,” he said in an interview posted on his Web site. “Which is odd, because I did all this research in the music papers, and that was what people called it, even then. . . . It’s not something I’ve invented!”

Source: ‘Rip It Up and Start Again: Postpunk 1978-1984,’ by Simon Reynolds – The New York Times Book Review by Review by Jim Windolf

Reynolds sums up post-punk as a mindset of ‘constantly looking forward’ and a ‘commitment to change’.

The very thing that seems most worth resurrecting from postpunk is its commitment to change. This belief was expressed both in the conviction that music should keep moving forward and in the confidence that music can transform the world, even if only through altering one individual’s perceptions or enlarging one’s sense of possibility.

Source: Rip It Up and Start Again by Simon Reynolds

The openness of the definition allows the movement to encapsulate a range of genres from new wave, no wave, goth, new synthpop and industrial. So many different flavours, but always coming back to the notion of change.

Unlike Dylan Jones’ book Sweet Dreams – The Story of the New Romantics, which focuses on years, tying together various voices, Reynolds’ book provides each chapter with a particular focus. Sometimes this is a particular band, but more often than not it is about a scene or genre in a particular place and time. Although organised chronologically, beginning with Public Image Limited and ending with Frankie Goes to Hollywood, each chapter spans a few years and sometimes overlap with other chapters and scenes.

What was interesting were the various through-lines that linked all the different scenes, the background characters that pop-up again and again, whether it be Malcolm McLaren, Brian Eno, Trevor Horn, Martin Hannett and Martin Rushent. For example, after seemingly laying the groundwork with David Bowie’s Berlin trilogy, Brian Eno then worked with Talking Heads, Devo and U2, and produced the No New York no wave compilation.

Rip It Up and Start Again was good to read after listening to Damian Cowell’s Only The Shit You Love: The Podcast, in which he provided his own reflections of growing up through the punk and post-punk movements. It also provided a wider perspective on the time and filled some of the gaps in Jones’ Sweet Dreams. However, as thorough and informative as Reynolds’ book is, I was still left unsure about what actually constituted ‘post-punk’? For example, Reynolds touches on the Eurythmics, but not Blondie. This is something Windolf touches on:

That’s also how it went for the Clash, which made a rude noise in 1977 and sold big in 1982 with a brand of expensively produced pop that borrowed from funk and reggae. But the Clash doesn’t make Reynolds’s postpunk list. Neither do similar acts of the era, like the Jam, the Police, X, Elvis Costello and Blondie, all of whom began by making raw music only to end up turning out more sophisticated fare tinged with soul, funk, reggae, disco, hip-hop or Latin touches.

Source: ‘Rip It Up and Start Again: Postpunk 1978-1984,’ by Simon Reynolds – The New York Times Book Review by Review by Jim Windolf

I think one of the challenges of this sort of book is that some bands, such as U2 and Talking Heads, started out with ‘post-punk’ ethos, before transitioning to something more post-post-punk:

Many groups born in the postpunk period went on to enjoy huge mainstream fame, including New Order, Depeche Mode, the Human League, U2, Talking Heads, Scritti Politti, and Simple Minds. Others who were minor or background figures at the time went on to achieve later success in a different guise, such as Bjork, the KLF, Beastie Boys, Jane’s Addiction, and Sonic Youth. But the history of postpunk is definitely not written by the victors. There are dozens of bands who made landmark albums but never achieved more than an abiding cult status, earning the dubious consolation prize of being an influence and reference point for ’90s alt-rock megabands (Gang of Four begot Red Hot Chili Peppers, Throbbing Gristle sired Nine Inch Nails, Talking Heads even supplied Radiohead with their name). Hundreds more made just one or two amazing singles, then disappeared with barely a trace.

Source: Rip It Up and Start Again by Simon Reynolds

In addition to a question of starting and stopping, I assume that there are always limits to what can be included. For example, Clinton Walker’s wrote Stranded – The Secret History Of Australian Independent Music to give voice to the Australian underground movement:

When English writer Simon Reynolds published his history of post-punk, Rip It Up and Start Again, in 2005, I was disappointed to find it was biased towards the UK and US in exactly the way that had always infuriated me, and against which I had attempted to deploy my writing as a corrective. But at least he had the diplomacy to apologise for ‘having regretfully decided not to grapple with European post-punk or Australia’s fascinating deep underground scene’.

Source: Stranded: Australian Independent Music, 1976–1992 by Clinton Walker

All in all, I feel that the more I read and listen, the more there is to know.

On a side note, I found a playlist of all the songs mentioned on Spotify.

Acting might look easy, but it’s actually very hard. In fact, if it looks like it’s easy, it means that the actor is doing something very hard very well. If it looks like ‘acting’, forget it. Sam Neill ‘Did I Ever Tell You?’

I came upon Sam Neill’s memoir Did I Ever Tell You This? via an interview with Sarah Kanowski on the ABC Conversations podcast. I had caught a part of the Australian Story as well. It occurred to me that as a person away from the screen, I really did not know much about Neill. After reading the book, it would seem that it was as much a personal choice on Neill’s behalf as anything else.

Neill was inspired to write the book after being diagnosed with cancer. In part, it was written for his children, in part for the reader, but really for Neill himself.

The thing is, I’m crook. Possibly dying. I may have to speed this up. Suddenly, for the first time in my life, I have time to burn, and time to think. And writing, jotting thoughts and memories down, is a salve. It gets my mind off things.

Source: Did I Ever Tell You? by Sam Neill

In some ways, this memoir presents Neill as an everyday sort of guy. He is not very sporty. Had a stutter when growing up. (Something interesting to consider alongside James Earl Jones experience.) Suffers from hemochromatosis. Enjoys the outdoors. Struggled through university. Grew up hitch-hiking places. Smokes marijuana. And stumbled into acting.

The book itself begins with Neill’s upbringing in New Zealand’s South Island, his family background (father was in the army), going to boarding school, as well as his Irish roots. However, it soon changes track as Neill’s life somehow falls into the world of film beginning with Sleeping Dogs and then My Brilliant Career. This seemingly opens him up to one opportunity after another, especially once he got an agent.

Although it is not necessarily a memoir filled with gossip, Neill cannot help but shares endless stories of the people that he has met along the way (this is epitomised with the private birthday bashes where famous musicians come and perform), the various life journeys he has been on (house in London, Sydney, a winery in Central Otago that is the closest to Antartica), the things that he has owned (the Ralph Hotere painting he lost in the divorce and the Porsche that Judy Davis caught him driving in). It is this side of the book that reminds us that although Neill comes across as humble, a man whose job it is to “sit in caravans”, he most definitely has lived a privilaged life.

The thing I enjoyed the most about the book was Neill’s eye for the odd stories, from Sir John Gielgud’s tale of the Sam Neill who “fucked absolutely everyone in London”, his mother trading a ride with a biker on the back of his Harley in lieu of a ride in her buggy, or recounting the spreading of his uncle’s ashes. What surprised me was how funny Neill is. The roles that I could remember were often quite serious characters, however they clearly do not capture Neill as a person. (On a side note, one of the things that surprised me about this book was how many shows and films he has been in. I could not believe how often I was left think, “Oh yeah, he was in that.”) He certainly has a dry humour, especially for someone going through chemotherapy. Chris Gordon compares reading the book as to being at a dinner party:

I finished this memoir feeling like I had been at a raucous dinner party, seated next to him of course, where tales are flung from one end of the earth to the other and the evening finishes with a lovely Two Paddocks pinot noir. And a relief that he is in remission.

Source: Did I Ever Tell You This? by Sam Neill by Chris Gordon

I think that I would agree with this.

The other thing that stood out throughout was Neill’s general fascination with life. Whereas others would disappear from a conversation, Neill often seems willing to persevere. He comes across as someone willing to hold on tightly and let go lightly. Maybe this is based on the spectre of cancer hanging over him, I am not sure.

However, this fascination is also balanced with being careful of his private life. Lucy Clark touches on this, highlighting the aspects of his life that somewhat absent.

In Did I Ever Tell You This? Neill shares quite a bit more of himself. Indeed he has laid himself quite bare and, like most actors awaiting the reviews, he wants to know how he did. As memoirs go, it is very funny and extremely entertaining, but with a judicious touch of poignancy. No self-pity here. He is an enormously good raconteur and also deliciously indiscreet in some of his tale-telling (co-stars behaving badly, take note). But still, he is careful with his private life. Details of past relationships are either omitted, as in the case of his most recent relationship with the Canberra press gallery journalist Laura Tingle, or referred to fleetingly as with his marriages to actor Lisa Harrow and to film makeup artist Noriko Watanabe. His four children and eight grandchildren appear as careful references to his life’s joy and great love.

Source: Sam Neill on his new memoir and living with blood cancer: ‘I’m not afraid to die, but it would annoy me’ by Lucy Clark

While Madeleine Swain suggests that there are few revolutions.

If you’re looking for gossip, you’ll find plenty to enjoy. But this is hardly the scurrilous slander mongering and barbed brickbats of a Hedda Hopper skewering or an ‘article’ in the National Enquirer. In fact, most of the people Neill mentions he seems to rate pretty highly. But when he does come across a curmudgeon or someone who behaved less than favourably on set, he tells it as he sees it. Though, to be frank, there are few shocking revelations.

Source: Book review: Did I Ever Tell You This?, Sam Neill by Madeleine Swain

I guess that is why this is a memoir, not an autobiography? Personally, I did not mind this. Did I Ever Tell You was the story the Neill wanted to tell and as always, it could have been different, but it wasn’t. Also, it was made all that more meaningful listening to Neill read it.

The only path to expertise, as far as anyone knows, is practice. Daniel Willingham - Why Don't Students Like School

A few years ago, I wrote a post exploring the act of finding the right method for the moment and working on approaches like they were ‘pedagogical cocktails‘:

Every teacher is different – we just choose to deny it. Even though we may practise a certain pedagogy, it does not necessarily mean that it will be the same as the next person. Rather, everyone has their our own intricacies and twists on the way they do things. What then starts to matter more is the practitioner rather than the pedagogy.

Source: So Which Pedagogical Cocktails Are Drinking Today? by Aaron Davis

My thought was that what mattered is actually going beyond the what and how to address the why. I was thinking about this a bit after reading Daniel Willingham’s book Why Don’t Students Like School?: A Cognitive Scientist Answers Questions About How the Mind Works and What It Means for the Classroom. I was recommended the book by someone and noticed that it was available in Audible so I dived in.

The book is broken into ten principles:

  1. People are natually curious, but they are not naturally great thinkers. Therefore, think of to-be-learned material as answers, and take the time necessary to explain the students the questions.
  2. Factual knowledge prcedes skill. Therefore, it is not possible to think well on a topic in the absence of factual knowledge about the topic.
  3. Memory is the residue of thought. Therefore, The best barometer for every lesson plan is “Of what will it make the students think?”
  4. We understand new things in the context of things we already know. Therefore, always make deep knowledge your goal, spoken and unspoken, but recognise that shallow knowledge will come first.
  5. Proficiency requires practice. Therefore, think carefully about which material students need at their fingertips, and practice it over time.
  6. Cognition is fundamentally different early and late in training. Therefore, strive for deep understanding in your students, not the creation of new knowledge.
  7. Children are more alike than different in terms of learning. Therefore, think of lesson content, not students differences, driving decisions about how to teach.
  8. Intelligence can be changed through sustained hard work. Therefore, always talk about successes and failures in terms of process, not ability.
  9. Technology changes everything … but not the way you think. Therefore, don’t assume you know how new technology will work in the classroom.
  10. Teaching, like any complex cognitive skill, must be practiced. Therefore, improvement requires more than experience; it also requires conscious effort and feedback.

Willingham explains that each of these principles was selected based on four criteria, that they are true all all the time, based on a great deal of data, have a sizable impact on performance and had to be clear about what was involved for a teacher. This focus on practicality is emphasised by the implications for the classroom provided at the end of each chapter.

There were a number of ideas that left me thinking and reflecting. This includes that logical thinking is often really just memory retrieval:

When we see someone apparently engaged in logical thinking, he or she is actually engaged in memory retrieval.

Source: Why Don’t Students Like School by Daniel Willingham

The more dots you have, the more you can retain new information in the future:

This final effect of background knowledge – that having factual knowledge in long-term memory makes it easier to acquire still more factual knowledge – is worth contemplating for a moment. It means that the amount of information you retain depends on what you already have.

Source: Why Don’t Students Like School by Daniel Willingham

Unstructured ‘discovery’ learning can lead to incorrect discoveries:

An important downside, however, is that what students will think about is less predictable. If students are left to explore ideas on their own, they may well explore mental paths that are not profitable. If memory is the residue of thought, then students will remember incorrect “discoveries” as much as they will remember the correct ones.

Source: Why Don’t Students Like School by Daniel Willingham

Effortless is a myth, “practice makes progress:”

Replace the mantra “practice makes perfect” with “practice makes progress.”

Source: Why Don’t Students Like School by Daniel Willingham

Everyone makes mistakes, the question is often how you respond.

I didn’t see the Big Boss very often, and I was pretty intimidated by him. I remember well the first time I did something stupid (I’ve forgotten what) and it was brought to his attention. I mumbled some apology. He looked at me for a long moment and said, “Kid, the only people who don’t make mistakes are the ones who never do anything.” It was tremendously freeing – not because I avoided judgment for the incident, but it was the first time I really understood that you have to learn to accept failure if you’re ever going to get things done. Basketball great Michael Jordan put it this way: “I’ve missed more than nine thousand shots in my career. I’ve lost almost three hundred games. Twenty-six times I’ve been trusted to take the game-winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”

Source: Why Don’t Students Like School by Daniel Willingham

It is interesting reading through the reviews online for the book. Many praise its practicality, which I found helpful too. The issue I had was with the research and the statement of fact. For example, one commentator put it as follows:

The strength of this book is that it contains good educational advice (mostly); its weakness is its constant reference to a theory in science that I find fundamentally unconvincing.

Source: All it is cracked up to be? Some notes on Daniel Willingham’s ‘Why Don’t Students Like School?’

At the very least, I felt that it was a useful book to read as a provocation in and out of the classroom. As with various instructional models, these books offer a reminder of aspects to stop and consider. However, it also left me wondering about the rise of science as discussed by Hannah Arendt in The Human Condition:

Nothing indeed could be less trustworthy for acquiring knowledge and approaching truth than passive observation or mere contemplation. In order to be certain one had to make sure, and in order to know one had to do. Certainty of knowledge could be reached only under a twofold condition: first, that knowledge concerned only what one had done himself—so that its ideal became mathematical knowledge, where we deal only with self-made entities of the mind—and second, that knowledge was of such a nature that it could be tested only through more doing.

Source: The Human Condition by Hannah Arendt

Good art reveals what we are usually too selfish and too timid to recognize, the minute and absolute random detail of the world, and reveals it together with a sense of unity and form. Iris Murdoch ‘On the Way to the Fen, Ethical and Aesthetic Quandaries Arise’

Not sure what led me to looking up ‘Iris Murdoch’ on Libby. It might have been The Mindfield podcast or In Our Time. Whatever the seed, it was an enjoyable experience to listen to Richard E. Grant’s reading of The Sea, The Sea.

The novel revolves around retired theatre director, Charles Arrowby, who has moved to Shruff End, a small coastal town, to escape London. He is in search of space and distance to write his memoir. However, things unravel, as his past keeps on popping up again and again, both mentally and physically. In particular, he discovers that by chance a love interest from his youth, Hartley, lives in the same town. His life unravels from there.

The Sea, The Sea is a strange book. On one level, it seems somewhat straightforward, a fictitious memoir. Whether it be reflections on a young romance, seeing a dragon or dreaming a death, I found it one of those books where I always felt real, where I knew what was happening or could confidently imagine the world portrayed. However, I often wondered afterwards if it was all true or if there was in fact so much more going on. Even the very nature of the narrative, where characters seem to come on and off the stage like it were a play with a script, or how Arrowby’s memory distorts time, I was left thinking of the world ignored or overlooked. This is something Arrowby touches on himself in the text:

Emotions really exist at the bottom of the personality or at the top. In the middle they are acted. This is why all the world is a stage, and why the theatre is always popular and indeed why it exists: why it is like life, and it is like life even though it is also the most vulgar and outrageously factitious of all the arts. Even a middling novelist can tell quite a lot of truth. His humble medium is on the side of truth. Whereas the theatre, even at its most ‘realistic’, is connected with the level at which, and the methods by which, we tell our everyday lies.

Source: The Sea, The Sea by Iris Murdoch

All in all, there is always something seemingly unreliable in Arrowby decisions and reflections that always seems to leave things one step away from disaster. However, as John Pistelli suggests, the constant throughout is the sea.

Through it all, the sea sounds and resounds as a reminder of the transience, violence, and grandeur that is our native element.

Source: Iris Murdoch, The Sea, the Sea by John Pistelli

As a reader, it sometimes felt like we are placed on the stage, asked our thoughts and judgments on Arrowby’s various acts, especially when he locks Hartley up for her own good. We are left to ponder at which point he over-steps or was deluding himself. It is easy to judge him for this, but in judging it feels like we are somehow being judged in return. Asked how we might act? As Murdoch suggested elsewhere:

Good art reveals what we are usually too selfish and too timid to recognize, the minute and absolute random detail of the world, and reveals it together with a sense of unity and form

Source: On the Way to the Fen, Ethical and Aesthetic Quandaries Arise by Iris Murdoch, qtd. in Genese Grill

Or as Sarah Churchwell concludes in her review of the novel, all we can do is try.

All of her novels explore the contest between love and art as conduits to truth, and the ways in which contingency contends against form. Does art redeem? Does love? Or do we keep confusing our misunderstandings with metaphysics? Contingency is frightening, as all Murdoch’s characters know, capricious, unpredictable; but it is in the hazards of the fortuitous that life reveals itself. Love is also contingent, unpredictable, hazardous. Good art, Murdoch also said, is “the highest wisest voice of morality, it’s something spiritual – without good art a society dies. It’s like religion really – it’s our best speech and our best understanding – it’s a proof of the greatness and goodness which is in us.” Although Murdoch parses the grammar and traces the limits of love, she never stops believing in its moral force, or the spiritual potential of art. Art is impossible, so is love. And the only possible moral choice is to continue trying to achieve both, knowing that they are impossible.

Source: The Sea, the Sea – Sarah Churchwell on the making of a monster by Sarah Churchwell

The Sea, The Sea was a hard book to move on from. I actually felt that I could not start another book straight away, I wanted it to wash over me a little longer. Cheryl Bove argues that it stresses the necessity for acting with humility.

This novel stresses the interconnectedness of all things, the consequences of actions, and the necessity for acting with humility.

Source: Understanding Iris Murdoch by Cheryl Bove

I wonder if this is what left me thinking and reflecting?

Alternatively, it had me wondering more about Murdoch’s philosophical ideas, such as “unselfing” and “the fat, relentless ego”, and how these may relate to the book.

Iris Murdoch, for instance, once described looking out her window “in an anxious and resentful state of mind … brooding perhaps on some damage done to my prestige”. When suddenly, she observes a kestrel hovering on the currents of the air. “In a moment everything is altered. The brooding self with its hurt vanity has disappeared. There is nothing now but kestrel.” Without going anywhere, contemplating the figure of the kestrel permits Murdoch to move from resentful isolation to contemplation — thereby enacting what she calls a process of “unselfing”, a certain diminishment of “the fat, relentless ego” in the face of a moral reality outside of ourselves.

Source: Ramadan — the discipline of solitude – ABC listen by Scott Stephens

All in all, it is one of those novels that I feel will stay with me for a while.

When the political debates of our age are past, there will always be our country. Our challenge – all of us – is to live here and call it home; our nation this thing of the soul. Stan Grant ‘Australia Day’

With Australia Day, Stan Grant continues on from his previous book Speaking to my Country, collecting a range of pieces and ideas tied together, addressing land, family, race, history and nation to answer the question: who are we? The book is a mixture of personal memoir and philosophical exploration.


The book begins with a reflection upon the act of looking on at Australia from a distance. Grant explores the different between the head and the heart, that is Australia as a great place versus the feeling of rejections when it comes to reconciliation. He highlights this conflicting sentiment with different perspective on the idea of Australians being ‘young and free’:

Australians all, let us rejoice for we are young and free.

My people die young in this country. We die ten years younger than average Australians and we are far from free. We are fewer than three per cent of the Australian population and yet we are twenty-five per cent, a quarter, of those Australians locked up in our prisons – and if you are a juvenile, it is worse, it is fifty per cent. An Indigenous child is more likely to be locked up in prison than they are to finish high school.

Grant talks about living space between the dance and the destruction:

Between the dance and the destruction is the Australian dream. It is here I find myself. I live between the dance and the destruction. I live between the ship and the shore. It is here that the dream remains unrealised. In this troubled space we all live our lives.

Part 1: Home

In the section on ‘home’, Grant explores the strangeness associated with the place where we live. He discusses how we try to tame the country with roads and towns, marking the ground and drawing borders to give a sense of certainty. Such acts involve living with absence and loss, “the stranger in ourselves.”

This doesn’t mean we all become Indigenous or that we become more homogeneous but we can dwell in this ‘uncanny’. We can as psychoanalyst Julia Kristeva says discover our ‘incoherences and abysses’ to come to terms with the ‘stranger in ourselves’.

The stranger in ourselves.

That’s what I was coming to terms with at Lake Mungo; it is what has drawn me to the work of Jonathan Jones: not my Aboriginal ancestry or my European heritage, something else, something more elusive that can’t easily be measured in DNA. It is that part of me where black and white meet and how what has happened here between us, has happened on this land. This is our home: unsettled and uncanny.

What interests Grant is the possibility of the space between. Michel de Certeau suggests that we use stories to fill the void. Some examples of literary stories include Thomas Keneally’s The Chant of Jimmie Blacksmith and Joan Lindsay’s Picnic at Hanging Rock.

The story of Australia speaks to us from the dry shores of Lake Mungo. Forty thousand years ago, the waters were full, sustaining a thriving community. Here a man was laid to rest with full ceremony, his body smeared in ochre. In all of humanity this was rare, among the earliest examples of such ritual. The mourners sang a song in language now lost.

As modern Australia celebrated its birth at Federation in 1901, the historical inspiration for Jimmie Blacksmith, the real Jimmy Governor, sat in a Darlinghurst jail cell, alternating between singing songs in his traditional Wiradjuri language and reading the Bible – the synthesis of the old and new worlds that collided here so violently, given form in a man soon for the gallows. It is a synthesis Keneally saw as contradiction; and yet it is the essence of being Australian.

Joan Lindsay wrote the book of the missing girls of Hanging Rock, and director Peter Weir fixed it in our imaginations. The land itself, a potent character in an ethereal tale of place and being.

These are Australian stories, ancient and modern, and all efforts at recognition – a need to be seen. It is indeed a fleeting project, an attempt to capture a people – a people always changing – in a time and place. A drawing on a cave wall preserved for antiquity, to tell future people: ‘This was us.’

It is so human, and it is essential.

Part 2: Family

In the section on ‘family’, Grant explores the complicated nature of ancestory. He wonders who to embrace and deny in his past. Is it Frank Foster? Is it Otho Gherardini?

We are all of us a part of each other. We step into many rivers and are inevitably changed: a process of becoming. A Chinese friend once said to me that we are the last stop on our ancestors’ journey. What does that make me? I have been a nobleman in old Florence; part of the Norman conquest of England; an Irish baron and then a cast-out peasant farmer. I have been a Catholic rebel, striking back at the harsh hand of Protestant England. I have been a Wiradjuri warrior defending an invasion by strangers with muskets. Yet I would be today unrecognisable to my forebears; someone who doesn’t speak their languages or practise their ceremonies. I am a pinwheel of colours spinning into one; a kaleidoscope of history that came to rest on the shores of Botany Bay.

For Grant there are problems with describing Aboriginal culture as somehow ageless. This is particularly captured in the work of Australian anthropologist, W.E.H. Stanner, and the idea of a people caught between the ‘dreaming and the market’.

Stanner’s essay [Durmugam: A Nangiomeri] has helped set Indigenous people in the Australian imagination: a people for whom change spells doom. It has all the hallmarks of the ‘noble savage’, the European ideal of a people unsullied by ‘progress’. Stanner – for all his good intentions and empathy – robbed Aboriginal people of a future. His idea of people caught between the dreaming and the market exerted a powerful hold on policy makers as they sought to find the balance between economy and identity; between what is ‘mainstream’ and what is ‘Indigenous’. It has helped shape ideas of identity, some Indigenous people embracing the idea of timelessness and rejecting of what is seen as modernity.

Grant warns that identity risks being “a cage in search of a bird”

To borrow from Franz Kafka, identity can be a cage in search of a bird. I was born into that ‘half-caste’ community that emerged from the Australian frontier; a hybrid society formed out of the clash of old and new

In the end, what it means to be Aboriginal is varying and always in a state of flux. With this in mind, regarding those who have ‘made it’ as being somehow less legimate is not true. Being indigenous is a birth right, not something that can be means tested.

Part 3: Race

In the section on ‘race’, Grant explores the ways in which race is constructed. He begins by recounting his first memory of being labelled as ‘black’ while at school.

Black. It wasn’t just a colour and it certainly wasn’t just a word. No, not a word: it was a world, a world unto its own, a world apart. It was a world to which one was banished. Black was a judgment.

Only to then be denied.

You’re not black, you have lovely olive skin.’

There it was. In one day, Owen and I had been called black and then told we were not black. Black was in the eye of the beholder, it was nothing we could own. Tim had spoken the innocence of childhood, but knew more than he realised

Grant explains how race is a learnt behaviour. The challenge faced is balancing between the ‘better angels of our nature’ and the reality of indigenous lives today.

Doesn’t my life tell me that race is not a prison? Unlike Baldwin, I look for the spaces in between, those questions that defy easy answers. My instinct is to soften the blow. Even knowing what I know I struggle to accept that my country should be condemned by the worst of its history. Are we – black people – still in Baldwin’s words ‘worthless’? Is this my country? Today, at this time, is this who we are? I think of my fellow Australians of goodwill – those who have loved and cried with us – and I say surely this, the better angels of our nature, is the true measure of us.

But then I think again how 97 per cent of kids locked up in the Northern Territory are black kids. I think of their parents too likely to have been behind bars. I think of their grandparents likely gone too soon, dead before their time. In this country Indigenous people die ten years younger than other Australians. I think of how suicide remains the single biggest cause of death for Indigenous people under the age of thirty-five. I think of Aboriginal women, forty-five times more likely to suffer domestic violence than their white sisters. An Aboriginal woman is more than ten times more likely to be killed from violent assault.

I think of lives chained to generations of misery.

The problem is that indigenous people are rendered invisible by the white gaze.

I am born of deep traditions. My footprints trace the first steps on this land. I am born too of the white imagination – this imagination that said we did not exist. The imagination that said this was an empty land – terra nullius. It is not just a legal doctrine, it is a state of mind. We were rendered invisible, our rights extinguished. If we existed at all, we were just as likely dismissed as the fly-blown savages unfit to be counted among the civilised races of the earth.

However, the black gaze can also be just as restrictive. One of the problems is that there is often a difference between language and understanding. Extending from this, language is often contested and tells you where you are, as much as it tells you who you are. Interestingly, Grant reflects on the fact that English is his first language:

Yet English is my first language – in truth my only language. To learn Wiradjuri is like learning Chinese, or French or Italian; I can speak the words but never truly hold the thoughts. That may be my loss, but in English I find the words to describe myself.

Race is a lie that we give power to. It exists in the eye of the beholder

Race exists in the eye of the beholder; just like magic what we believe we see. Black can be whatever we want it to be, Jews have been ‘black’; Irish, Greeks, Italians have been ‘black’. Funny thing, the more familiar we become – the closer we get to white – the less black we are.

DIscussing Barbara and Karen Field’s book Racecraft, Grant eplains how race is often used as a way of deflecting our attention away from racism.

Race matters, even if the evidence tells us it should not. Shifting our language is not some ‘Kumbaya’, all-hold-hands fantasy; it is urgent: race exacts a terrible human toll. Barbara and Karen Fields, remind us that ‘race is the principle unit and core concept of racism’.

Part 4: History

In the section on ‘history’, Grant explores the relationship between history, memory and forgiveness. When considering history of ideas, he pushes back on the abandonment of ‘dead white men’. For Grant, if we want to understand the world we are in then we need to engage with the figures that laid the platform for liberalism, democracy, human rights, globalisation, patriarchy, white privilege, and structural inequality. With this said, it needs to be appreciated that liberalism has sown the seeds of both destruction and liberation.

It is inarguable that the revolutions – technological, industrial, philosophical – begun in eighteenth-century Europe have transformed our world. Democracy, capitalism, freedom of expression, universal rights, individualism, rule of law, separation of church and state, accelerated change in a way never before seen in human history. We are today more literate, more materially wealthy, and healthier than ever before. We are more connected to each other, borders have come down and trade moves more freely. Peoples have thrown off the yoke of imperialism and have looked to bodies forged out of Enlightenment principles of liberalism, like the United Nations, to enshrine the rights of previously colonised or indigenous peoples. As I will write later, liberalism has sown the seeds of both destruction and liberation.

Turning back to history, Grant explains that memory is not history.

As David Rieff said, ‘The takeover of history by memory is also the takeover of history by politics.’

Memory can provide belonging or poison the soul.

Memory is a chain linking us to a past from which we forge our identity. At its best it has given me a place to belong and a pride in my heritage and my family’s resilience. But there is a downside. Bitter memory can poison the soul; at its worst it can feel more like a noose, strangling us, choking us off from the world.

Associated with memory is the Importance of forgiveness. As Desmond Tutu stated in reference to Apartheid, “without forgiveness, there is no future.” The opposite of this is resentment. This is epitomised by the life and work of Jean Amery, where resentment turns inward until vengeance destroys us. Amery is Friedrich Nietzsche’s ‘Ressentiment Man’, a prisoner of his past, defined by historical grievance and driven by hatred and desire for revenge.

Where Hegel saw history as progress, the quest for recognition and freedom, ‘Ressentiment Man’ is caught in a time warp, returning always to the source of injustice that he cannot fix and does not want to fix. History, for him, is a festering wound, to be picked at over and over, never allowed to heal. His suffering is his strength; his weakness the greatest weapon he has over his oppressor. Nietzsche saw this as the morality of the slave, an inversion of power where the downtrodden emerge triumphant. But to Nietzsche ‘Ressentiment Man’ is a loathsome character.

His soul squints; his mind loves hidden crannies, tortuous paths and backdoors, everything secret appeals to him as his world, his safety, his balm; he is past master in silence, in not forgetting.

Grant explains that forgiving and forgetting is not amnesia, rather it is a choice to ‘acknowledge, commemorate and put aside’. In the end, forgiveness for the past offers a greater opportunity for justice and peace.

Philosopher Paul Ricoeur says forgiveness has a ‘poetic power’, it shatters ‘the law of the irreversibility of time by changing the past, not as a record of all that has happened but in terms of its meaning for us today’.

Part 5: Nation

In the section on ‘Nation’, Grant explores the way in which nations are constructed. He explains that a nation is an ever evolving story. For Australia, this story has been that of ‘terra nullius’.

That’s what a nation is: a story. Stories are how we explain ourselves to each other. It is a story that we imbibe, and a story we so rarely question. What is our story? It is terra nullius. Historian Stuart Macintyre calls it a story of ‘a sleeping land finally brought to life’.

However, there is always other elements in the margins, which sit outside the dominant narrative. For Australia, one such element is the plethora of Aboriginal names used when naming the land, names which offer a constant reminder that Australia was not ’empty’.

Where I grew up there was Narrandera, Wagga Wagga, Cootamundra, Gundagai; it was as if the settlers were reminding themselves whose land this was even as the local people were being forced off.

A sleeping land, brought to life – empty land – the legal fiction struck down by the High Court in the Mabo decision, but so deeply lodged in the Australian consciousness that for much of this nation’s history it rendered Indigenous people invisible.

The challenge indigenous people face when it comes to Australia and nationhood is, “how to live as people with rights and dignity in a country that has historically denied those rights.”

We cannot separate the land from murder. But when we put down our books we return to our daily lives of family, work, school and sport, and push aside those dark thoughts. It is a privilege that other Australians enjoy. I wonder what it must be like to know contentment. It eludes me. Modern Australia was not built for Aboriginal people, my black ancestors were expected not even to survive.

Grant states that a referendum around constitutional recognition serves as both an opportunity and a threat. An opportunity to say, “we are now one people”, recognition of the First Peoples of the land, to have a voice on matters that impact them, and to complete what was started in 1967. However, it is also a threat to the dominant narrative about who we as ‘one people’ are. Because of this, such changes will always depend upon conservative support.

One of the challenges with change is that the expectations around recognition are not reciprocal, rather it often asks more of indigenous people.

Recognition has always appeared to me to ask more of black people than white, Aboriginal people feel strongly the expectations that they will forgive their fellow.

Philosophically, liberalism is tougher for people of colour.

Liberalism asks easier questions of white people; it poses tougher questions of someone like me. I have to work harder to embrace it; I have to push the limits of liberalism until it bends to include me.

Quoting from a lecture by Peter Yu in 2018, Grant explains how politically substance has been traded for symbolism.

Reconciliation, Yu said, with a commitment to a full political settlement ‘no longer exists’, it has ‘lost its moral and political gravitas’. As a nation, we have traded substance for symbolism. This was a devastating appraisal of the abject failure of Australia to heal its deepest wound, while Indigenous people continued to fill our prisons and cemeteries.

The question Grant is left wondering is whether liberalism a big enough idea to liberate Aboriginal people?

In his 2014 Quarterly Essay ‘A Rightful Place’, Pearson challenged Australia as to whether its ‘system of democracy enables an extreme minority to participate in a fair way.’ Pearson wrote:

The scale and moral urgency of the Indigenous predicament far exceeds the power of Indigenous participation in the country’s democratic process.

Pearson had belled the cat. Here was the fundamental question of Australia, it is the question that turns over and over in my mind – it is the question that has hovered over my every thought in this book – is liberalism a big enough idea to liberate me from the chokehold of race, identity and history? If liberalism works for others, can it work for me?

One of the problems with liberalism is that, as “a philosophy of progress, it doesn’t cope well with the past.” Borrowing from Tommie Shelby, Grant suggests that a move would be a focus on ‘thin blackness’, where the emphasis is on justice, rather than identity politics.

African-American, Tommie Shelby, says we can pursue justice without reverting to the divisive politics of identity. He walks a delicate line between what he calls ‘thick’ and ‘thin’ blackness. As the labels imply, thick blackness emphasises racial solidarity; thin blackness puts the emphasis on justice.

For Grant, recognising the inherent rights of First Peoples is actually a means of setting everyone free.

Coming back to the idea of ‘Australia Day’, Grant explains that more than a day or a date, it needs to address who we are as a nation, even with all its tensions. Regarding the idea that a nation is a story, Grant chooses to believe a story of hope over indifference.

The story of this country asks us to choose: what do we believe? Must I be cursed like Sisyphus, forever doomed to roll the boulder of our history to the top of the mountain only to return again to the bottom? A nation is a narrative, it is a story, it is what we imagine, it is what we choose. For me, I choose the historian, Inga Clendinnen, and the ‘springtime of trust’ over the anthropologist, Bill Stanner and his ‘history of indifference’. Is this naive? No, it is hope. This is the hope of the storytellers who have shaped my life.


I spent a long time with Australia Day. I listened to Grant’s reading of it twice and spent a lot of time reflecting upon it. I had also read parts of it previously in The Australian Dream. Although it is structured around five key themes, the book is very much a wrestle. In some ways it feels this way as Grant tries hard to find space in the in-between. However, it also feels like a book very much written for readers. To borrow a quote from Richard Flanagan in conversation with Claire Nichols:

Books are created by readers, not writers. So the more space you leave for the reader to create the story, the more chance you have of writing something that might have meaning for readers.

Source: Richard Flanagan on the atomic bomb, HG Wells and a kiss by The Book Show

With Grant, this space often comes in the form of ideas that are seemingly complete and incomplete at the same time. Ideas that often lead you as a reader to dive down rabbit holes.

One such rabbit hole that I was left thinking about was Grant’s discussion of stories and notions of truth. In Truth and Truthfulness, Bernard Williams discusses the relative way in which we choose truths to form narrative:

There is no way in which the king’s death could have happened “for” the Anglo-Saxon chronicler and not happened “for” us, or the Germans have invaded Belgium in 1914 “for” some cultures and not for others. The same holds for many small-scale explanations: if the king was murdered, someone killed him, period. What is relative is the interest that selectively forms a narrative and puts some part of the past into shape.

Source: Truth and Truthfulness by Bernard Williams

Published in 2019, I cannot help but think about this in regards to the failure of the referendum and what it means for the story of our nation.

I think that Australia Day is one of those books that I will continue to come back to in the way I think about things and what it means to be an Australian.

Ultimately, the essence of being a Stolen person is that you’re always trying to find out who the hell you are. Jack Charles ‘Born-again Blakfella’

I was recently speaking to someone about the referendum whether to change the Constitution to recognise the First Peoples of Australia by establishing a body called the Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander Voice. They complained that indigenous people have had the same opportunities as the rest of us, including the right to vote, therefore they did not know why they needed a special ‘voice’. I must admit, although I disagree with their point of view, I was somewhat lost for the words to say in response and decided to just leave the conversation at that.

Jack Charles’ autobiography Jack Charles: Born-again Blakfella helped clarify to me why the changes outlined in the the Uluru Statement from the Heart are so important to aid in the healing process.

The Uluru Statement from the Heart is an invitation to the Australian people from First Nations Australians. It asks Australians to walk together to build a better future by establishing a First Nations Voice to Parliament enshrined in the Constitution, and the establishment of a Makarrata Commission for the purpose of treaty making and truth-telling.

Source: View The Statement – Uluru Statement from the Heart

A child of the stolen generation, Charles talks about being taken away from his mother at two months age (only because she left the hospital before they could take him away after being born). Instead he was brought up as the only indigenous child in Box Hill Boys Home. There he and the other boys were abused by the Salvation Army officers. The legacy of this experience led Charles to a life balanced between the world of theatre, and a life of drugs, crime and homelessness.

Published in 2019, a few years before his passing in 2022, this book is written with the hindsight of a long life. Although frustrated with politics, the prison system, at Australia’s ‘unique racism’ and the failure to bring about treaty, this is never offered as some sort of excuse to some of the choices made in Charles’ complicated life. Instead, this book can itself be considered as a form of healing.

One of the best pieces of advice I can give to anybody struggling with the trauma of past abuse is to talk about it. It’s difficult to open up, but I try to encourage folks to reflect on themselves during those moments of suffering – without a sense of blame and shame. What you were subjected to is a part of your lived experience and, as unfortunate as it is, it happened. Come what may, you have to relegate it to a section of the old grey matter up top. Leave it there, until you wanna talk about it in a group session or it comes up naturally in conversation.

I think that what makes this book so powerful is Charles’ (and Namila Benson) storytelling. I often found myself unsure whether to laughing or cry. Whether it be writing letters home for fellow inmates in prison.

It was always whitefellas getting me to write their letters. I don’t remember any blakfellas asking me to write for them. I’d make sure to use just the right language and phrases so these unsuspecting women back home would know they were number one. And the payment for my efforts? Tobacco and chocolate. This letter-writing business held me in good stead. I always rolled out of prison having gained a few pounds.

Collecting rent in the form of burglaries.

When I discovered my connection to this traditional land, I started thinking of my burgs as ‘collecting rent’; taking back just a small piece of what had been cruelly stolen from me and my people.

Performing naked at the Opera House in response to sexism.

The Opera House waited until the very last moment before finally calling me and agreeing to pay all the girls the correct fee. I told them, ‘I’m so pissed off with you, ya bastards. Y’know, making those girls wait so long.’ I paused but there was no response. Time to pull out the big guns. ‘Okay, I’ll stay, but I’m going to do Bennelong naked. Fuck yas.’ It seemed like a fair exchange for the stress we’d been put under. And so I did it. Wandered on stage and performed the show with me willy dangling on the Opera House stage.

And faking it as an ‘actor’.

They had to know full well that I, Jack Charles, was too far up meself to audition. It’s true. When it comes to acting roles, auditioning and getting knocked back just won’t do. I’m very lucky to be in the unique position where I’m not forced to audition in order to be seriously considered for roles. The great Australian actor Bill Hunter never auditioned either, so I take my lead from him. He told me once, ‘I get away with it so often, Jack. Thing is, I can’t act but everybody reckons I can.’ It was a relief to hear someone of his calibre say that, not to mention his advice that I should be more assertive. I responded, ‘Well, I’m in the same boat, Bill. So long as we know our lines and create the illusion of being someone else, then we’ll get across the line. You know, if it works for us, it’ll work for the audience.’

Maybe this book was not about me (clearly not, it was about Jack Charles), however I cannot help think about my own experiences and how I might have behaved differently. I was, in hindsight, lucky enough to teach at a Koori school. I remember being frustrated at times with how I was treated. For example, I would walk down the street and hear ‘pinky’ hollered at the top of one of my student’s lungs. In hindsight, I think this was actually there sign of respect. Often having been somewhat rejected by the mainstream school, I imagine there were many teachers they would not have given the time of day to, let alone called out to. Even with my academic awareness of ‘The Stolen Generation’, I feel that autobiographies like this and Archie Roach’s Tell Me Why help to appreciate the ongoing legacy of such a decision and who change is so important.

James Bridle’s book shines a light into the New Dark Age


Have you ever been to a movie that surprised you? Having seen the trailer and watched past movies from the same producer, you assumed that you knew what was going to happen. That is the experience I had with James Bridle’s new book New Dark Age: Technology and the End of the Future
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When I read the title, I expected a book describing the coming collapse of Western civilisation. The problem is that this crash is already upon us. Whether it be the breakdown of infrastructure, Eroom’s Law, the unreliability of images and the rise of machine learning algorithms, the darkness is already here.

This book is less about the actual technologies at play and more about their impact on society. It is what Ursula Franklin describes as ‘technology as a system.’ Bridle’s focus is on new ways of thinking about, through and with technology.

In light of the recent revelations around Cambridge Analytica and GDPR, I recently reflected upon the importance of informed consent. I argued that we have a responsibility to:

  • Critically reflect and ask questions
  • Learn from and through others
  • Engage in new challenges

Bridle’s book starts this journey by actively informing us. He then puts forward the challenge of what next.

There is a kind of shame in speaking about the exigencies of the present, and a deep vulnerability, but it must not stop us thinking. We cannot fail each other now.

Although the book offers more questions than answers, it does it in a way that left me feeling somehow hopeful. Whether you are coming from the perspective of culture, education or politics, this book is a must read for anyone feeling at all dissatisfied with the current state of the world today.


For a different introduction, listen to an interview with Bridle on The Guardian: